My plan is upset

Thinking a lot about which college, which course, problems and all related issues, now all had gone into a mess. Sad. Headache. My initial hope, which is studying in TOA is diminished. All seem to be object the choice I made who are dad and his friends. It sounds very funny why should dad's friends involve in our matter. No answer for you. It has been a "custom", my sister was like that too. Sometimes I do not really understand why this my studies' matter seem to be very important to everyone where dad's friends need to filter my choice. Oh gosh~ I have no idea on this. I'm so important? I'm so impressive? But I'm sure what my thinking more or less is true. I told to my dad's friend, he did agree my thought and it is mature. Yeah, I think very deeply. Step by step. I could anwer the reason why I'm choosing this but not that. I'm thinking it well as well as possible.

So I went Dasein Academy today. Ben told dad it is very good. I do not know what is so good, but he did mean lecturers. Oh I see. Facilities not attract me, I do not like all things there, even the aisle, the pathway and it is very far away from KL. No. Not my place.

Dad's thinking change from time to time. Not fixed. Sometimes this, and somestimes that. I'm upset. I really do not know what he wants. I'm totally lost now. Help me~

Got P license for motorcycle

On 12nd Dec, I went to Delta Mahsuri to take motorcycle's test. Only scared can be described. Especially the moment riding motorcycle on the narrow "bridge". Unfortunately, the feeling of scare pushed me down the bridge. And I FAILED in section 1. Went section 2 right after fell from bridge. The sun was too friendly, giving me the warmest weather. It was very hot and reluctant to wait under that situation. It was my turn, in my mind, I thought at least I pass this section (section 2). Checked the rear view mirror, light, signal, horn. Started to move. Finished then. When to the small shed where the examiner sat. Wrote my name and signed. Heart was not pouching in fast rate anymore. Walked back to counter, was watching my test paper. I got only 9/14 in section 2, for section 1, of course I already failed. I failed in both section, totally failed. Two friends went with me were pass. Oh my god, motorcycle test was hard for me, I thought studying for SPM even easier. So then, initially I need to retest on the following Friday, but my L license expired. I went today morning. Queued up to register. Waited for a long time. Upon my turn, oh gosh! My test paper wasn't there but my name printed in the list. Where was mine? The JPJ administrator as well as examiner asked me to wait. So I waited. I got no. 38 out of 40. I was almost the last. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Finally, the time came. First definitely was to cross the bridge. I told my self not to be too scared or else I have to pay another RM50 to retest. Yeah! I succeeded, I did not lose my balance. I did the test in section 2 like usual. After finish, went to the shed, again, wrote my name and signed. This time, I pass in both section. And finally, I got my P for motorcycle. I felt relief, at least I let off one of the anxieties. Haha! And one more thing, my family no need to chatter anymore. The next will be car test. Wish me all the best...

JC's birthday party

Chang's birthday wasn't on 23rd Dec but 20th Dec. Party was held on 23rd as many of the classmates went Buddha Camp until 22nd Dec. Loo, Hui Wen and me were the first arrived his house. My dad fetched us there. We were waiting others in his living room. Did nothing. Others were arriving one after another. His mum prepared a lot of food, a lot, really. Spaghetti, sausage, nugget, nasi lemak, Dunkin' Donuts, pudding, fruits and many others. All were enjoying the food and talking at the same time. Long time we did not meet, that's why we talked a lot, but in groups (xii said "biasalah"). Haha! Boys were playing games inside, either computer games or play station, I did not know. Oh ya, we took photos too, but mainly were girls, the boys were busy playing their games. I mixed up with Xii's group then we talked about our future, colleges, universities and all about academic. I told them my plan, but they have no idea. Time flow. I went back with Karen and Pooi Hean about 11.30 p.m. Slept after that.






Lastly, Happy Birthday, Chang...

Enthusiasm about arts and design

Undeniably, I'm very enthusiastic about arts and design. The passion for arts and design encourages me to invest the field. Josephine Yap, the counselor in TOA who counseled me. She said that, if you do not know to draw, please think twice before enter TOA. Besides, she told me, if you choose to study arts and design because others courses such as business, finance, medical, pharmacy and bla bla do not suit you, and you may go home instead of entering TOA. Haha, it is true! What am I then? I'm the opposite way, others courses do not suit me but arts and design suit me. So, TOA is definitely my place, I'm confident with TOA. Of course, there is a possibility that my enthusiasm for the arts and design may die away slowly after my study. But, I have the strong passion for it currently, others not exist in my mind. Mum said that arts and design is often the course for the poor results' students. I'm not agree with that. To study this, you must have the interest and talent, not everyone got this natural gift. Honest without ego, with my result, I can go into a more professinal field. One more question, there are not much students who are talented in arts and simultanuosly have flying colours result, ain't? Talking about jobs, doctor, pharmacy, dentist and bla bla bla, I'm not interested with them. Only arts and design are my soul in life. Your life will be dull without arts, without design, without beautiful colours. I love arts....that's all.

CoNfuSiOn ??????

Does campus life is really important? What is vital? Which? Where? What? A lot of question marks in my mind now. I'm hesitating whether enter TOA or LKW-U. The question is spinning in my brain now. I doubted a lot, I hope TOA appears to be winner at last. TOA gives me the confidence in creating me a best design student in future. I knew that, pressure exerted in TOA while enjoyable campus life in LKW-U. The later sounds better. But, TOA may show reality. What's in my mind? TOA is the place to learn and study and complete assignment, LKW-U is the place to study but more to side of enjoy. How enjoy it is? Sit on the chair in Wings cafe, enjoy food in food plaza, play games and bla bla bla, all the foreigner's life style. Undeniably, environment of LKW-U with a huge campus leads it to champion. But, I think accomplishments are important! TOA mentioned that, the city is the classroom. That's why, it is siuated in the middle of city, with a lot of cars, a lot of buildings and a lot of people. No doubt on it, TOA is the best of best with its good reputation and I could see from the students' art works. Yeah, I want to be like them, know how to produce the product, to create things by special effects. It's totally nice. TOA and LKW-U are different, totally different. LKW is international, can I live with foreigners? It is new experiences for me somehow. TOA is more compatible, where the style of life is still the style of local people which most of them are chinese. But I knew, English circumference is better. For this, LKW is really a place to get total improvement of English. No! I want to enter TOA. The appearance is not important. Don't judge the book from its cover!

The One Academy vs. LKW University

Woke up at 7.30 a.m. today then went KL with my dad and sister. The Colormancy Gallery was opened from 9.30 a.m. to 1.00 p.m.. It was the first destination we went. Admired the art work of student in the gallery while waiting for The One Academy's counselor, Jospehine Yap. She consulted me as well as my dad and sister. Then went around to see its facilities. Great and lastest facilities. I like it. Decided to enter there for the moment. January intake's offer letter can be given to me to refuse for attending National Service but enter the April in take which the class will start on May. It attracted me a lot. Yay....It's my place after SPM in my mind. Decision made after then, on the way going back to Tampin. That's the way. But problems exist, the accommodation, transpotation as well as food in the not-really-good environment of The One. The life in the city is not the problem, I came from city and I like it. Fee is kinda expensive but much different from the fee in Monash University (the richs' place). It worths for my future, I think. Haha. Though now, Lim Kok Wing University comes in. Question marks between The One Academy and Lim Kok Wing University appear. They have to compete now. Talking about the campus, I prefer LKW of course. Answer is blur now, which should I choose? Ok, I will go to visit LKW University. If the computer labs and all the facilities are standard (definitely larrr) and satisfy me (it is sure thing), I will go.

Genting Trip

Was going to Genting on 15th Dec to 17th Dec with Karen, Sim Loo, Sim Yee, Hui Wen, Jian Chang as well as my cousins and cousin's boy friend. These were our three days schedule:

15th Dec
We gathered at bus stand 8.00a.m.. We took City Liner bus to Seremban KTM station and then we went to Genting by Genting bus from KL Sentral. Don't ask me why didn't we take express bus from Tampin to Puduraya and get Genting bus at Puduraya. I'm anti-Puduraya, the messy place. Oh ya, Mok went with us until KL Sentral. The earliest bus ticket to Genting we got upon reaching KL Sentral was 3.00p.m. , so the girls went to Mid Valley for about 2 hours while the boys enjoyed their games by having a laptop and their topics in KL Sentral Secret Recipe. Sat in the Genting bus about 1 hour then rode Genting skyway. It was 6.00p.m. and was quite late after checking in. 19 607 was our TINY room. Having bath and then went to First world Plaza to have our dinner at Market Food Street. Our food included Seafood fried rice, Kampung fried rice, Thai fried rice and Chicken rice. About 9.00 p.m., we visited Reply's Believe It or Not. Yeah, it was nice and somethings were unbelievable. Finish visiting at 11.00 p.m. We went Fantasy World. Totally enjoyed there. Hitting the game machine was such a great activity to let off pressure after SPM. Felt happy watching the ticket vomitted by the machine. Went back to room in the midnight, talked a while before sleeping.

Mid Valley North Court

Mid Valley

Having dinner in Market Food Street

Reply's Believe It or Not

Big Chair

Jian Chang and Me

16th Dec
Woke up on 7.30 a.m.. Having Maggi Hot Cup as breakfast. Went to First World Plaza and spent RM 357 for our all park ticket. It was heavy mist in outdoor theme park. Roller-coaster were not working on that time. We rode antique car, flying jumbo, astro fighter, tea cup, cyclone. Me, JC and cousin went driving on Grand Prix Fun Kart, HW and SY went for space shot, while Karen and SL went for matahari. After that, we went for super toboggan, spinner and Dinasaur land. About 3.00p.m., went to First Wrold Plaza and were having MC Donald as lunch. Then, went to ride slow motion rides in First World Indoor Theme Park. Returned back to outdoor after sometimes. Corksrcrew was flooded with a long queue of insane people. We did not play it. We played pirate ship and rolling thunder mine train finally. Flying Dragon, bumper boat and boating fulled with a lot of people too. Went back to room for a short rest. Then, went to Euro Express and bumper car. Went to Only Mee to have our dinner. After that, enjoyed in Fantasy World again. Enjoyed hitting the same machine. Went back to room about 2.00 a.m. Bathed and slept at 3.30 a.m. This day was tired but happy!
Some photos taken in outdoor theme park:

Low, Loo, Karen in the Tea Cup

Jian Chang

Low

Hui Wen and Jing On

Back view of the antique car

All of us

It was cold

On the boat

Karen, Loo, Me, Low

Jing On and Jian Chang

17th Dec
This was the last day. Woke up around 9.30a.m.. Packed up our luggage, prepared for checking out. Before leaving, we snapped photos around First World Plaza and also in our room. Were getting to skyway station and leaving Genting to KL Sentral then Seremban to Tampin. Good-bye Genting, we enjoyed very much...Remember the time ya friends!!!

Outside First World Plaza

Girls

I like this!

Jian Chang and Me

10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1 Auto-10 sec snap!

p/s: Just a few photos here ya....We took a alot, you know why? Taking photos is fun and memorable larrr!!! ^^

心血来潮，我回来了

今天看了美智的部落格，就心血来潮想更新我的部落格。
我已经很久很久没更新了，大概四个月了。
之前一直都很忙，忙考试，另一方面也是很懒惰。
现在很得空了，生活变得很空虚，可是时间还是过得很快。
这是假期吗？我觉得只是个短暂的休息吧。
中五是完毕了，接下来还是要继续大学生活。

之前我都没更新过部落格，而且曾经两次把以前的记事给删除了，然后重新恢复部落格，因为不想在POST和POST之间留着隔着远远的大空隙，可是后来还是办不到。
在这空闲的时段，我尽量来更新我的部落格。
部落格，我回来了！！

Blogger...I'm Back!

Few months I did not update my blog.
Today, I am back.
I'll try my best to update my blog in this free holiday.

p/s: I am lazy in doing this stuff ><

I Am Lazy to Update My Blog....

HA! Few months I didn't sign in to my account and update my blog.
I am selected for PLKN. Not that sad actually, not happy also.
Just feeling, selected then go lor, not selected no need to go lor...
But the game and activities very nice, i think....
So just go and try lar....Haha!

JuSt WriTE fOr FuN

It has been one month i don't update my blog. Many things had happened~ But then I was too lazy to write about them. It is nothing about this post.

* You could see how lazy I am. By the way, holiday started, so Happy Holiday~

今天偷懒没上学

这么多年，我今天算是第一次逃学。
最近压力很大很大，我真的支撑不了，很辛苦~
昨晚做补习功课，做到发牢骚，泪都流了。。。
最近的功课真的很多很多，还有集锦簿，真的好烦！
不知为何，觉得大家都在改变，不再像以前，我的感觉也渐渐变得很凶恶了~
觉得自己也改变了，已经很不开朗，朋友变了，我也少接触了，感觉就是很冷淡~
心情很低落，就此搁笔~
待续。。。。。。。

Kursus Kepimpinan

Gosh~ I went camping at Anjung Tasik Empangan Durian Tunggal. School organised it. Honestly, it was the worst camp I went. Totally not nice, I felt disappointed. What camp? Six meal per day. Game not nice, not challenging at all especially the jungle trekking. I thought it was very hard but it was not. Slept in smelly and small tent, but this seemed to be in a camp. I hoped I could play happily there, but the games were too lousy. First, all games was related to IQ, they could not involve all the members in one time. Second, they had limited time. IQ games would be nicer if played in longer and enough time, wasn't? Two talks were boring. Bath was alright as the toilets were alright. So much of free time, that was nice but then it should not happen in camp. Conclusion, it was not nice! Totally failed~

p/s. I don't have much to say about it, many people attend, and the process was long, I just wrote down my feeling here

输了...松了~

今天的比赛确实输了，查尔斯感到很伤心的。
大家觉得准备了两星期，结果一无所获，真的蛮悲哀的~
不过比赛是有输赢的，我们就是输的那方。
其实表现都不错，大家都认为评审偏心。
辩论题目只要是反方都会对老师有伤害和不利的言论。。。
评审都是老师啊，他们应该不爽的~但是应该公平啊！
因此，决赛和半决赛都是正方胜出。
最不负的是，胜出的根本不厉害，还很差！！！
输了当然会有种不愉快的心情，可是当是个尝试，别介意嘛！
英达心里不开心的，老师说过输了别抵赖朋友。。。
老师好像对英达有偏见的，可能事她表现不太好吧~
老师没说出任何则言，不过脸上的表情对英达有伤害。
我也不会安慰别人啦，我是沉默的，因为我也没资格说别人差~
过去了，就算。。。
输了，也放松了~

大家都沮丧了~

明天就是辩论比赛了，朋友们都准备得七七八八了。
今天就忙着把稿子抄在小纸上，这都是候补的工，正选忙着练习啊！
下课后，两位老师来到图书馆慰问，看看我们。。。
结果，他们看了我们的稿，竟然说不能用~
哇噻！准备两个星期的东西都前功尽弃了。
我们顿时很沮丧，很紧张，根本不知所措~
之前的协助老师都一一 通过了，他们到底会不会？
现在这两个老师应该很好很有经验，可是为何最后一分钟才来协助？
其实我们当时都很烦，老师们也因而经过了一场辩论会。
呵呵~他们不是吵架吧！
临时抱佛脚，真的是手忙脚乱。
我四点多才回家，他们比我还迟呢！
感觉就是明天会完蛋的。。。
我是觉得没什么希望可以胜出，可是也要给点信心朋友嘛！
加油！！！

p/s.我还得穿巡查员的制服哦！会让人另眼相看的~

I am stressful !!!

I was training for the debate in school today although I am an alternate. I didn't hope for this, but it was teachers' demand. Our team were training in form of acting. I tried it out though this is the first time I participate debate. I was scare, and I am still fear and stressful. I knew my group leader is only the best debater, others not. Of course I am included as bad one. Mr. Ismail asked me to stand by for backing up the place of the third debater. I could only nod my head and just promise. I felt I am incapable! If I were to go into battle, I have had to object and protest what the other side said, after all it is a toughest job for me. Maybe I could do this, but then expressing idea by putting in words and forming sentences and with the fluency to speak it out in an immediate time is difficult. I am really scared if the sir wanted me to take over the place of third debater in the last minute. I don't deny that she is not so good, but I can't criticize her as I am not good at all. Somehow, she is malay, she might be better than me much more. Wednesday, we are going to the competition in Seri Pengkalan. I am very nervous and tension. Honestly, I think the chance to win is slim. I could not think like this actually, they are assiduous, they are confident, I am the one to give support. I hope we will be success~

p/s. After the competition, there are English and Malay's oral test. Oh gosh!!! Somehow, thinking of Leadership Training, I am elated!

清明节

今天一大早就起身了，去扫墓嘛~
八点就到坟场了，因为很近的。
今年比较不同，往年都必须带锄头去锄草。
今年不需要了，因为我爸爸已经请人铺了洋灰，变滑了，又干净。
堂姐堂弟都有来，可是我们都很不熟，就每年的今天见面一次而已。
天啊~只是没见一年，堂弟变得超高的，还是那么多人之中最高的!
大家一家人来扫墓，却没什么说话的，都分开几家人，各站各的。
整个过程才大约一小时，烧香拜拜，吃点拜祭的糕点，然后就收拾回家。
伯父叔叔们从吉隆坡来，不到两小时就回去了。
还蛮有心的，若是我，我都不会想来。
回家冲凉后，我又继续睡了。
今天我还写了三篇部落格。。。

待续。。。

辩论比赛

星期三就是辩论比赛了，还蛮紧张的。
其实我只是个候补，压力没那么大。
我被选为候补，我也有责尽力而为吧！
我觉得我没资格进入这比赛，毕竟还是国语辩论比赛！
侯补其实没什么好做的，可是我和另一个候补帮忙找找资料。
但我觉得我连资料都不会找，我好没用！
我还是帮他们做打杂的工，至少能帮上忙。
打印稿，查字典。。。就是我的工~
明天要正式练习了，我还蛮怕老师要我上阵。
老师说身为候补也必须练习，要背稿。
真的吗？
那么候补就需要被完三个辩论者的稿了，一共是十二篇啊！
上篇说到心情低落嘛~
由于辩论比赛，我整个星期都没踏入课室。
不进班也好，至少不用看到他吖。

祝福我们的比赛会有好成绩！！！

心情低落

昨天在学校心情突然很低落，很生气！
我超讨厌他！
不只我，还有其他人。
其实也没什么东西好透露的，只是写两行字来消消气。
原因只有一个，那些都是心底的秘密，无可奉告的~
我这人就是这样，隐私很重要。。。

My Birthday Celebration

Here are some photos (just a few)

Girls

All of Us

All of Us

Kar Yan and Me

Me and Hui Jun

Hong Jing, Me, Hui Jun

My birthday celebration

Here are some photos...

Last Year of Birthday Celebration with Secondary School Classmate

Finally, I did invite my friends to Pizza Hut to celebrated my birthday. Yeah, it was great. There were eight boys and nine girls (included me). I spent not more than RM200 on it. We ate a lot, I think. Three large pizza and two regular and five or six jars of Pepsi. The boys were water tanks. I got a watch (branded Smash) from LJC, CZX, SJC, LKH and MKQ. That's cool, thanks friends! The birthday cake was beautiful and delicious too. Thanks! Thanks Kian Hong for his angpau (he always give angpau). Some how present was not that important, after all what I need was just happiness and gay. I was really fine and satisfy.

Thanks Friends and Happy Birthday to myself^^

17th Birthday

HaPpY BirThDaY...

Is it a special day for me? Although it is my birthday, I do not think it is special. It is still morning now, should I celebrate my birthday with my friends by giving treat or should not? Wondering~ Maybe I should, after all this year is the final year in secondary school. Somehow, I feel troublesome (often think of many matters). I will think over, perhaps I will call my buddies and throw a party.

p/s. I update my post ^^