今天偷懒没上学

这么多年，我今天算是第一次逃学。
最近压力很大很大，我真的支撑不了，很辛苦~
昨晚做补习功课，做到发牢骚，泪都流了。。。
最近的功课真的很多很多，还有集锦簿，真的好烦！
不知为何，觉得大家都在改变，不再像以前，我的感觉也渐渐变得很凶恶了~
觉得自己也改变了，已经很不开朗，朋友变了，我也少接触了，感觉就是很冷淡~
心情很低落，就此搁笔~
待续。。。。。。。

Kursus Kepimpinan

Gosh~ I went camping at Anjung Tasik Empangan Durian Tunggal. School organised it. Honestly, it was the worst camp I went. Totally not nice, I felt disappointed. What camp? Six meal per day. Game not nice, not challenging at all especially the jungle trekking. I thought it was very hard but it was not. Slept in smelly and small tent, but this seemed to be in a camp. I hoped I could play happily there, but the games were too lousy. First, all games was related to IQ, they could not involve all the members in one time. Second, they had limited time. IQ games would be nicer if played in longer and enough time, wasn't? Two talks were boring. Bath was alright as the toilets were alright. So much of free time, that was nice but then it should not happen in camp. Conclusion, it was not nice! Totally failed~

p/s. I don't have much to say about it, many people attend, and the process was long, I just wrote down my feeling here

输了...松了~

今天的比赛确实输了，查尔斯感到很伤心的。
大家觉得准备了两星期，结果一无所获，真的蛮悲哀的~
不过比赛是有输赢的，我们就是输的那方。
其实表现都不错，大家都认为评审偏心。
辩论题目只要是反方都会对老师有伤害和不利的言论。。。
评审都是老师啊，他们应该不爽的~但是应该公平啊！
因此，决赛和半决赛都是正方胜出。
最不负的是，胜出的根本不厉害，还很差！！！
输了当然会有种不愉快的心情，可是当是个尝试，别介意嘛！
英达心里不开心的，老师说过输了别抵赖朋友。。。
老师好像对英达有偏见的，可能事她表现不太好吧~
老师没说出任何则言，不过脸上的表情对英达有伤害。
我也不会安慰别人啦，我是沉默的，因为我也没资格说别人差~
过去了，就算。。。
输了，也放松了~

大家都沮丧了~

明天就是辩论比赛了，朋友们都准备得七七八八了。
今天就忙着把稿子抄在小纸上，这都是候补的工，正选忙着练习啊！
下课后，两位老师来到图书馆慰问，看看我们。。。
结果，他们看了我们的稿，竟然说不能用~
哇噻！准备两个星期的东西都前功尽弃了。
我们顿时很沮丧，很紧张，根本不知所措~
之前的协助老师都一一 通过了，他们到底会不会？
现在这两个老师应该很好很有经验，可是为何最后一分钟才来协助？
其实我们当时都很烦，老师们也因而经过了一场辩论会。
呵呵~他们不是吵架吧！
临时抱佛脚，真的是手忙脚乱。
我四点多才回家，他们比我还迟呢！
感觉就是明天会完蛋的。。。
我是觉得没什么希望可以胜出，可是也要给点信心朋友嘛！
加油！！！

p/s.我还得穿巡查员的制服哦！会让人另眼相看的~

I am stressful !!!

I was training for the debate in school today although I am an alternate. I didn't hope for this, but it was teachers' demand. Our team were training in form of acting. I tried it out though this is the first time I participate debate. I was scare, and I am still fear and stressful. I knew my group leader is only the best debater, others not. Of course I am included as bad one. Mr. Ismail asked me to stand by for backing up the place of the third debater. I could only nod my head and just promise. I felt I am incapable! If I were to go into battle, I have had to object and protest what the other side said, after all it is a toughest job for me. Maybe I could do this, but then expressing idea by putting in words and forming sentences and with the fluency to speak it out in an immediate time is difficult. I am really scared if the sir wanted me to take over the place of third debater in the last minute. I don't deny that she is not so good, but I can't criticize her as I am not good at all. Somehow, she is malay, she might be better than me much more. Wednesday, we are going to the competition in Seri Pengkalan. I am very nervous and tension. Honestly, I think the chance to win is slim. I could not think like this actually, they are assiduous, they are confident, I am the one to give support. I hope we will be success~

p/s. After the competition, there are English and Malay's oral test. Oh gosh!!! Somehow, thinking of Leadership Training, I am elated!