I am stressful !!!

I was training for the debate in school today although I am an alternate. I didn't hope for this, but it was teachers' demand. Our team were training in form of acting. I tried it out though this is the first time I participate debate. I was scare, and I am still fear and stressful. I knew my group leader is only the best debater, others not. Of course I am included as bad one. Mr. Ismail asked me to stand by for backing up the place of the third debater. I could only nod my head and just promise. I felt I am incapable! If I were to go into battle, I have had to object and protest what the other side said, after all it is a toughest job for me. Maybe I could do this, but then expressing idea by putting in words and forming sentences and with the fluency to speak it out in an immediate time is difficult. I am really scared if the sir wanted me to take over the place of third debater in the last minute. I don't deny that she is not so good, but I can't criticize her as I am not good at all. Somehow, she is malay, she might be better than me much more. Wednesday, we are going to the competition in Seri Pengkalan. I am very nervous and tension. Honestly, I think the chance to win is slim. I could not think like this actually, they are assiduous, they are confident, I am the one to give support. I hope we will be success~

p/s. After the competition, there are English and Malay's oral test. Oh gosh!!! Somehow, thinking of Leadership Training, I am elated!